Swearing Monkey-Tilt

Well, I did it. I am ashamed to say that Full Tilt caused me to hit the Swearing Monkey Tilt stage, and I have Quadman to prove it (sorry, man - you did NOT deserve to be on the other end of that chat session, even if it wasn't directed at you).

I had hit $100 of bonus cleared at Full Tilt and had already sworn that I was not going to play another hand there. As it turns out, in order to get to that point I was already down another 50 BB from where I left off in the last blog update.

But then I had an early child feeding Sunday night and (with Monday being a holiday for me) I decided to log in and see what was happening. I located one of the biggest $1/$2 fish there is (53%/0%/0.3) and grabbed a seat at his table to his immediate right. Lo and behold, Quadman is sitting to the fish's left! Small world. :-)

In the span of about 60 hands I played the following 4 monstrosities, 3 of them against the fishie:

• AT on a AJ3 flop. Fishie had J3
• 66 which made middle set on the flop. Fishie had no pair, no draw, but hit runner-runner for a str8. (This started the tilt)
• QJo, flop QJ6, turn blank, river 6. Guy flips over T6.
• 45s in the BB, 5 ways for 2 bets preflop. Flop 863r, giving me an open-ender. Turn was a 2, giving me the nuts. Me and the fishie capped the turn. River was a 3. I bet/called the raise and he flipped over 88 for the rivered boat. (This pushed me into full-blown monkey-tilt, and the aforementioned chat session with Quadman)

Luckily I logged off 1-2 button revolutions after that last hand (although one could argue I should have logged off immediately, or better yet even sooner - once I started to realize the onset of tilt). Another 30 BB down the drain in an incredibly short session.

I am not usually one of the players to shout "rigged" but I am at a loss of how "swingy" Full Tilt can be - every session seems to be either up 40-50 BB or down 50-60 BB depending on which side of the rigged-o-meter you happened to be that day. It is really hampering my ability to enjoy the game. And it also points out that I have a LONG way to go towards getting tilt out of my game.

I have signed up for Stars and made my initial deposit, so even if I decide to "get just a few hands in" I at least have another place to do it. Of course, there is no guarantee that Stars is any better (or that my perception of the game in general is any better) but will be at least a fresh start. Combine that with a few nights off to clear my head, and hopefully I'll get back on the right track.